to answer the question if you are kidding yourself, what works for me is to quiet my "monkey-mind", or ego, via meditation, prayer, working out, etc and then trying to listen to the voice deep inside me that knows so much more...what does your intuition or gut say?
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
