Needing some guidance... 4

[jks]

You all are so good to me... this morning was better.

I went to that same class at the gym again and then went to H's parent's house to pick up my kids. The class that I do at the gym is a power toning class and I absolutely love it. I can already see a difference in my legs and arms. I felt so good after the class that when I went to pick up the kids I was really happy. I had the biggest smile the entire time and it felt so good to kiss and hug my kids again.

H seemed happy too when he first saw me. He made a comment that I look skinnier. And I told him I was actually gaining weight. I'm 5'9" and during the time that I initially found out about H's PA I dropped down to 110 lbs. I haven't weighed that much since Jr. High. I'm now at 120 lbs. So I would say I look a lot healthier than I did before.

He seemed like he kept looking at me as I was talking with the kids and I thought he looked good too. I then got in my car and was looking at my phone because my friend had texted me. Basically, I was distracted as I left.

I was almost to the freeway and my D6 got really upset because she meant to bring a toy that she really wanted to play with and forgot it. I wasn't that far away so I told her I would turn around and get it. On the way driving back I called my friend that had texted me. I pulled back up to H's place and told her to go run in and get it.

When she came back, H followed her out holding a bottle of water and held it up motioning to me like, "do you want this?" I was on the phone still so I held up the one I already had in my car like "that's ok." Then he came and buckled D6 back in the car and at the same time my friend asked me what I was doing today.

I told her I was planning to take the kids to a splash pad and immediately D6 says, "where?" I told her and H was standing right there he didn't seem very happy. I could tell his demeanor had changed. But I just said, "see ya!" And left still talking on my phone.

I feel like I got my mojo back. Hopefully it's not short-lived.

LITB, I'm probably going to spend this week reading your sitch from start to finish. I have a feeling it will be very inspiring.