I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

bustingout-FINALLY! someone who gets me!
in al anon i've learned that detaching slowly is best. also getting rid of his physical presence doesn't need to be the only resort. ugh! but this is hard!

SIAS-O2-i need O2! i've thought a lot about this and struggle with it.
1-i'm a SAHM n i will b A LOT mr independent if i worked but i will hate myself the entire time bcuz i LOVE being home. i'm waiting for his next paycheck to even us out where i will live off of our rental property. (patience is needed 4 this 1)
2-i live in our house and he does repairs while his dad cares for the yardwork. i would need to rent out the house n move to an apt, close to a park...(motivation to let go and move out needed)

other than that he's made comments saying, i hope it helps that i come n get the kids ready (mumbles- although i think u don't need me) I've noticed that he now sees that he needs us more than we need him.

My goals geez, haven't thought about that...
my goals have always been R goals. but now,
1-to build back my self-esteem (continue with IC, journaling, picking up the guitar again)
2-get a sponsor and work the program (attend mtgs often and read literature)
3-stick to my 180s (especially managing my anger)
4-continue to improve my R with my family and friends
5-make new friends that a-don't know about sitch, b-share similar lifestyles (SAHM)

I have learned to be patient but I am growing increasingly impatient (my old ways) and want a quick fix (cut him out)
Thank you for this questions SAIS it's a reminder for me and I needed it!