I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

Bustingout, you completely understand me. Having him over in the morning it's as if he never left, only better cuz we didn't have mornings together like this.

Before all this he would wake up super early and be out the door before we got out of bed. Now we're all up. I make breakfast while him and kids interact at the counter. We chit chat about all sorts of things. Laugh about the kids silly comments or expressions. We're a family every morning.

Now he comes over after work and instead of taking them to his moms or me going somewhere, he hangs out. waters the lawn. feeds the dog. watches tv w S4. and I clean up around the house. again. We're a family.

But every night, after he drops off S4 and tucks kids in bed, he leaves. and we're a family of 3 again.

I'm emotionally drained but something in me keeps going and I wish it wouldn't. I wish I could just sever the ties and continue my life without him.