Cadet is exactly right. I don't mind at all. If something about my story resonates with someone else, that's great.
I am no longer DBing. If H has a change of heart, I will explore my feelings and options with a counselor before deciding on a course of action. Otherwise, I have a rough, though necessarily flexible, plan for this new chapter of my life. It may be a second choice, but it will still be a chapter that is fulfilling and fun.
We all learn from this experience. My lessons... I know that, as much as I tried, I could have done better. It doesn't matter if it would have made a difference. It is a constant condition. I can always do better. I know that I will be OK, but it will take however long it takes for me. I will ignore anyone who tells me otherwise. I have strength that expands with challenge, and has yet to be exhausted. I know what true forgiveness is, and why it is for me. I know that the values I've always espoused are truly mine, because I have lived them against the temptation to do otherwise. I know who my true friends are, and who are not.
back56, your 6/6 post on my thread was how I felt for some time. I love the puzzle analogy! I am stiill putting the pieces together. Some are still missing, but they are pieces I need to find and place, not H. This is no longer our puzzle, but mine. If he wants to add some pieces, they will now have to fit somehow in mine. At some point, there will no longer be spaces for them.
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Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man
