but you started out living with her and cheating on her, she left but when you learned she was pregnant you two then got married
but you cheated on her again, after marryiing AND created a child with OW? So your sons have a half sibling, whom you barely see? Does your w ever comment on that?
she and I broke up over OW, yes, then got back together and got pregnant, she moved back, but I was still stupid and kept flirting and emailing with OW...
she moved out when I was at the fire station, I got blind drunk called OW, she came over, we got pregnant...
after that I decided I wanted to win back my wife, she moved home, and stayed with me, R with OW was over at that point other than having a D...
no, W doesn't every comment on that... I always asked her when a good time would be for a visit with D, told her exactly where we would be, and came home exactly when I said I would, answered her phone calls and txts when at visit... but no, she has never commented on it...
I have no doubt that she is still harboring some resentment and pain from that betrayal... I will be the first person to admit that she SHOULD have left me 9 years ago... for the last 5 years though, she has been telling me everything was fine, and that she was happy and that she was in love with me... until the bomb... I have NO idea what flipped the switch that day, and she says I did nothing wrong, she was just done trying... she checked out at that time... I got the It's not you it's me speech and she insists that she won't try (or at least did we have not discussed M or R for a month)...
I have no idea what i can work on or change, because she's given me NOTHING to work with... no grievances, no issues, other than I love you as the father of our kids, but I don't LOVE you... I've made my decision and it's final (was at that time anyway)
I will continue to give her the space and time that she needs to heal and process and i pray every day that God will give her a change of heart and she will want to try to work on our M for our kids at least...
only time will tell... I am very impatient at times, and that's something that I'm working on... I'm trying very hard to let me worry and anxiety go... and not focus on things that I can't control... the problem is my perception of time has been totally out of whack... it's been 6 weeks and it feels like 6 months... but I'm getting better...
thank you again, to all for your insights and support... it means a very great deal to me... have faith, be good and stay safe...
M:40 W:31 S:8 S:5 D:8(prev. relationship) Bomb dropped: 5/10/12 It's not you it's me MO: 6/1/12 T:14 M:9
