Lost pt2

[dscl]

I know. The fact she was texting him while she was with me and D on FATHER'S DAY, from inside our family home has ended any thought I've had of saving this R.

Don't know if years from now we can start a new one, but this R, cannot be saved.

I'm calling my mother tonight to fill her in on what's going on. After that, will wait to have my D's birthday and then send W the following.

W,

I'm mournful of the situation we find ourselves in but I also need to think of what type of man I want to be in the future, I want to be able to look in the mirror and respect the man that looks back at me and if I continue on this path, I can’t. I also need to show D a man that she can respect, for this will be what she bases her views on what a man should be, and the type of man she would want in her life. I know I have issues and I’ve begun my journey to face and fix them, I want at some point, to be able to love and be loved by someone who wants me. While I wish that person would be you, I must accept that you may not be that person.

I cannot be in a marriage with someone that is having an affair that they can't end. And, for that matter, I cannot accept having a relationship with someone that doesn't respect me or D, I know you where texting him while you where with us on father’s day, it hurts to know that you would do this on the day that was suppose to celebrate fathers, but it shows me what little respect you have for me at this time. I'm sorry for hurting you in the past and for my part in where we are, but I can't choose the path you are on, I can only control mine.