Needing some guidance... 4

[jks]

I've been having a hard time lately. I just have been really down. I'm trying so desperately to pull myself out of this "funk."

H texted me this morning asking me how I was doing and if I received the tail light in the mail that he ordered for my car. I told him, yes. He then asked me how I was doing on money and asked if I had already been paid for the jobs that I had done recently. I told him I was paid a while ago and that a lot of my money had to go towards paying my sales tax for my business. So I didn't have a ton left.

He said he was in the same boat because the house was killing him. (He's had to pay for a lot of unexpected maintenance on it lately.) I told him, I know, I'm sorry.

That was it. I know this is my negative thinking, but I just feel like a burden to him. I think he really may be happy with his decision to continue dating OW and I'm kind of just an afterthought.

I know, I'm lame today. I've been trying so hard not to be affected by H and his actions but sometimes I crack. I will continue not to contact him.

My new friend that I've been hanging out with has been helping me make a new website for my photography. I'm really trying to put more of my focus towards my business and making more money. I know this will help me in so many ways.

Life... you are hard!!