NRTS (Not Repairable at This Station) 2

[WenikiTiki]

And at long last I got someplace special in my head......

I figured out how to move myself along. Had some amazing clarity.

I called up my bank, got someone to run numbers for me, figured out what the max price I could get pre-approved for on buying a house, and while still on the phone found a couple of nice houses that meet my criteria. Here in Hawaii.

I really like it here. I really don't want to leave. When I think about staying here I am afraid of having to see STBXH and OW. Well just because they are ruining part of my life doesn't mean I have to give up something I really love.

I will buy a house here. I will plant all the trees I love, I will watch them mature, I will enjoy the rest of my life. I will most likely have way more fun than if I stayed married to Mr. Grumpypants. Papaya, Avocado, Lime, Cocont, Bombax, Breadfruit..... It is going to be beautiful.

And I don't care if I am alone in this future. Because I will have my kids and grandkids. And my friends. And most of all freedom from the worry of trying to make anyone happy but myself.

BAM!