My W came down to get her son who has been down at my house playing with my kids all day. She stayed and we chatted in the other room for close to 2 hours. It was pretty light I tried to listen more than I spoke. She brought up moving forward with filing the seperation papers. She is trying to get a reduced payment on her student loan and in order to do that she has to show that she no longer has my income so it needs to be formaly submitted thru the court. I trust that what she said it true. I told her that what ever she needed me to sign was fine. I slipped and said that at this point I will willing to sign the seperation or divorce papers. What ever she wanted to move forward with. I said that it did not feel like to wanted to try and work on anything so either way I would do what she wanted. She said that was a whole other conversation for another day. Trying to remember what she said but it came across as she did not care either way. She said that the seperation papers would go thru quicker as the divorce papers took 60 days to process. Anyway, I said to her that I would prefer doing the formal seperation because I have not given up on us. Not much of a responce but that little side track took about 5 min and then we were back to talking about anything and everything else.
I should have not said that about going either way on seperation or divorce. I need to learn to stop being so dramatic!
All in all it was a good chat. She volenteered to go to see the court appointed custody evaluator with me tomorrow. She said she knows that she will have to wait in the lobby but it would be good for him to see that she is still involved and part of the kids lives. I love her and she is such a good person and yes I miss her. I did not her any of those things even though I wanted to. So how bad did I screw up?
M-45 W-44 2D - 11&13 2SS - 11&17 Married 10/10/10 Bomb 3/5/12 Moved 5 houses away 4/20/12 Back together 9/12 Seperated 6/13 Divorce Final 11/13/13
