if this is the kind of compassion you are capable of so early in your sitch - you are one amazing beautiful person. my heart goes out to you jamie.
keep in mind - we are only given what we can deal with - nothing more, nothing less.
on the other hand - i, too will add my downer. sure he has feelings for you, but as all of us have found out repeatedly is that even though the feelings are strong and often even stronger than before the bomb, they can do things like what you described and STILL continue to walk away. i fooled myself in the beginning every damn time - if he has so much there for me, this won't last all that long. well, it didn't work that way and usually doesn't.
so chalk it down to a few wonderful minutes of closeness, and then keep moving forward focusing only on yourself and your kids. your compassion will help carry you a large part of the way
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
