Goin' off the rails on a crazy train...

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks Crazyville. I know it's not the end of the world and I can go on and I know I will be better without him. My life is much happier and much more stable without him around. The animosity I have for him is more for the way bs is treating me and the kids rather than the fact that he doesn't want to be married. He has blatently disregarded my wishes and he continues to hide things from me and lie to me and yet he wants to be my friend. So I am drawing a boundary. I don't want to be friends with someone who lies to me and is not out for my best interest.

Perhaps he is ill. I am not saying I was innocent and did nothing wrong in our marriage but I did nothing to deserve being treated this way. Neither did my children.

I may sound angry or bitter but I honestly am not angry at this point. I am tired and worn out and this journey has just begun. I have detached from him. Yes I am hurt and sad and no I don't want this but I also do not want to be in a relationship with this man. I am happy with me and my kids. But I cannot trust him.