Crim , I agree with LITB, do not read anything into it but I do believe it was a deposit for sure. Whatever happens your head will be high and your son will one day know the man he turned you into.It is ironic that we have to go through something like this to get our heads on straight. I believe in my heart that if I ever have another chance at love, I will be the man that I wanted to be on the inside and I guess was afraid to show it. I kinda let my ex down in that regard. So hang tough my friend.....