Hey Brit, I've talked to Cheryl x3 and she is a tremendous help. Keep your chin up, your Wednesday appointment will most certainly help you out. You sound like you're approaching the edge of tolerance and timing that you so kindly pulled me back from last week. If you are getting to your fork in the road you know everyone will be here to support you, but I urge you to keep cool until your appt. with Cheryl to hear what she has to say. Tell her Ben said hello :-)
I'm in the same boat as you Brit. I'm sick of thinking about her, I'm sick of thinking about us, I'm sick about thinking about possibilities, as everything (or lack thereof) rather is pointing toward her no longer giving a flip about me in any way. Despite all this for whatever reason I still love this woman and for some reason that gives me hope. This in itself is probably foolish, if I weren't a hopeless romantic I probably wouldn't be in this situation to begin with.
You ask why are you doing this to yourself... Do you still love your husband? That's the only reason why I think any of us are still doing it.
me 38 W 30 T 3 M in 05/2010 Separated 08/2011 Stephchildren (all hers) SS17, SS12, SD8 I filed 8/27, she countered I filed response 9/5 Anxiously waiting on the judge!