Also forgot to say, I have found, and I am not saying it is mentally healthy for others to do, but I know how I need to operate for myself (aI never have done much in the convetional manner - and it has stood me in good stead!) I did keep looking initially at what was put out there. I found it desensitised me, and made me emotional detach from what I was seeing. Certainly, I would not have done so if I was mentally torturing myself, but I am the type of person that must face things square on and then deal.
