Soulmates

[irishblessings]

I sit here reading all of these responses and I feel like a complete and utter sap:) There are significant life events taking place with our kids (weddings, graduations) and I think I am finding myself sucked back into the sadness that comes with loss. I feel so guilty that my marriage failed. I wanted to experience these life events with my husband. These moments are what we, at least I, worked for. And to be quite frank, it [censored]. I can't seem to develop a new take on how I should be feeling. I still feel very awkward around my XH - I am civil, I don't cry - but I am very uncomfortable. I absolutely HATE that my kids don't have their parents together as they move forward in their lives. They deserve better.

No one needs to respond - I know that I am still fighting my way through all of this. I just want it to go away - I want to feel better about everything. If I am responsible for my feelings - why can't I change them?