No I didn't mean you were sounding like a martyr sometimes I catch myself in that mindset like "I want to grow so this is a challenge I must go through" when really u think it's a lot more like listening to myself. I do forced self to do things like go for a walk when I when feel sorry for myself LOL
And try not to worry these things sometimes have a way of working themselves out remember that outdoor event I dodn't know if I should go to? It got cancelled due to bad weather!
