Thanks GM! The other day when my STBXH and I talked a little, he spoke about how the way I am gives him anxiety. Me having a conversation with someone in line with me at the store, or me making new friends at the beach.
The further I go on this journey, the more I understand, this really isn't about me. His part is about him. If he is so frightened of life that he wants to choose a woman who appears to be as afraid of talking to new people as he is, then what the heck?!? I hope they have fun living in a cave together!
He married outgoing me, then claims to hate that part of me. I might have told this story. But the other night I was at a Whole Foods for pizza and beer. And in line was chatting with my friends and the people in line behind us. At one point I noticed this beautiful woman HAD NO TOES. It looked like a birth defect. She was with her husband they seemed like a delightful, happy, in love couple. They were in their 50's.
Later on I realized that my STBXH deciding he doesn't like my personality would be as ludicrous as the husband of the beautiful woman saying to her after 30 years: "Sorry dear, you have no toes, I just can't tolerate that!"
Anyway I am finding clarity in strange things.
I wanted to tell Walking that KML is the one who told me the crust/ham sandwich story! And valid it is!
I am making Eggs Benedict for brunch when all my family gathers up here in a few minutes. I hope everyone has something fun happen today!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
