It's an Opportunity for ME!

[zig]

shite brit - reading your post is exactly like reading my mind.

((((( )))))

i know that nothing helps, except a little time and some sleep -and then you get back to feeling yourself again and in a better place in your mind. at least that's what i've come to - just finally letting myself feel it completely - and then moving a teeny tiny step forward

on my trip away this weekend the loneliness and aloneness really hit me - i was astounded - and realized how much i had been repressing it. it's okay for us to feel these things - and in allowing ourselves to acknowledge the feelings, they actually seem to diminish just a little and are a bit easier to handle.

don't email gf - it won't do any good - just makes things more messy. i stupidly asked h around the second month (mostly because he was going on and on about how honest he was now being) whether ow knew that we had slept together - and how was that relationship doing based on honesty. well - all that did was that he "confessed" it to her - and then told me about it - made me plumb sick to my stomach - as she replied very sadly (his words) - "i really want you and i to be honest with each other!!

dealing directly with the ow never did anyone any good - from what i hear - and if you are going to fantasize about doing something why don't you fantasize her falling down a ling hole or blowing up or something more severe!!! (grin - heck, go for it!!)

you just focus on yourself and moving forward and all the new possibilities in your life with all the new stuff you're doing - and i think we will all find eventually that they "invade" are minds less and less as time goes on.

allow, sweet stuff...

zig