Stand up. Poor and tired, but more than this.

[LIO]

I did when I consulted with L last month.

Basically unless I sign the serving paperwork, then there is no way I can get any $ from him in a formal way right now.

The lawyer basically said "If you can cover the bills right now, expect to do so. Unless you sign the serving paperwork and proceed with the divorce, there is nothing that will make him HAVE to pay you right now. The judge will look at the day he moved out until the divorce date, and then you will be able to make a claim on the $ at that point, which probably will come to you in terms of retirement or the house as he is most likely not going to come up with the full $ amount at that time."

So in response to my "I'm sorry, I'm sure you will figure something out" email response, he said "Sign the paperwork, then we will talk about payments." I am keeping that email (not responding in person or in email) as if it does go to divorce, that is acknowledgement on his side.

I know that finances stress him out, but bills are bills and I don't get a choice on not paying them. Backed into a corner, he brings out the fact that I won't sign the serving paperwork (which I figured out why he brings it up yesterday). There are two things he won't talk about: money, and his involvement with his EA friend (that ended badly). I am starting to question WHY I would even want to be married to him. IF this is who he is like he says, I don't like this person. But if I say 'he is reacting with fear' then is that justifying him? I think I need to go for a long walk right now and breathe. I feel a bit of anxiety creeping up. I know that everything will work out. I know this. I just need to convince my anxiety that it will be okay.

Just 5 days until the house goes up for sale! Eek! After my walk, suffice to say I'll be a bit busy!