I had a response I was typing but I just deleted it. It realize it all boils down to one question/point for me...
What is the value of M? In other words, why does everyone do it? If someone doesn't feel like they're going to benefit from the decision in some way, why would anyone get M'd in the first place?
i don't think anyone gets married if they feel as if there will be no benefit (unless forced to, as in pregnancy, etc.). it may become that way and it sounds as if there's no benefit for you in your marriage now.
why did you marry him? surely, you didn't feel there was no benefit at the time?
M:63 H:53 S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23 M:15 T:16
Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways." H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12 12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing