Detach and GAL is easy. Out of sight, out of mind. Be selfish. Concentrate on me.
Spending time with the W is what destroys me. I have been doing good for a couple of weeks now as we haven't done anything together except for D3's birthday party and swimming with the Ds for an hour.
With tomorrow being a full day, I can't stop my mind racing. Tonight is going to be very rough for me. Tomorrow when I am with her, I will be fine. I can concentrate on the Ds and my plan of no talking about R, M or OM. Be the man only a fool would leave.
I just need to get through today and tonight. I have to stop myself from thinking that this is anything more than a day at an amusement park for the Ds. Yet, I can't stop thinking that this is a start of something. I can't stop thinking that maybe I should do more things with the W so she can see the new me. One of her reasons for the OM was we never did anything anymore. [Insert loud screaming of profanities here]
People who have had success with DBing a marriage where there is an OM involved, I need help. It is easy to say "nothing until she leaves the OM", but is it that cut and dry?
Tomorrow I will be fine. I can concentrate on the task at hand. Today, tonight and after tomorrow I think I am going to be a mess.
I know this post is the opposite of my last post, but my mind is swirling right now.
M-40 W-33 D3, D4, SD13 T 9 YEARS M 5 YEARS ILYBINILWY APRIL 2012
