Stand up. Poor and tired, but more than this.

[LIO]

I did it! I had my own fire in the backyard (something I always equated to h, s and I doing together, but I got tired of waiting.)

Okay, I'm no boy scout... H came out and looked at my fire and rebuilt it (he asked, I accepted) before he left and most importantly, I didn't give him a hard time about leaving or what he was doing (wasting $$) in my opinion. I held my tongue. It hurt.
I only asked "do all artists need to go be conflicted or brooding in order to be inspired?". "shrug" was the response.
Note to self: if this doesn't work out, and I meet another artist.... Run!!!

I am making it a point to not to be on the computer when he is here. Even if we don't engage.

I did have to email him about the money that he is supposed to deposit each month for s and insurance and taxes... I expect some comment about "now I need to sign the paperwork". Lol. I will ignore it.

Tomorrows plan is to get my movies I ordered, and keep packing the house. I also hsve a zen Buddhism book to read (maybe it would help me with the art of detaching!)