Havent posted for a while because I was able to come to terms with the fact that W was leaving. She had gone out looking at places to live so I decided it was time I got my pay put into a new account that hs ehad no access to and I would move money into a joint account for things like bills, food and stuff for kids. So she freaked out a bit about this at first and then moved on and she said she had found a place that she thought looked nice and I said fine do what you have to do.
Couple days later after having not discussed the topic again I get a text message which was a photo of her in some seriously sexy lingerie with a message that said if I keep being a good boy I can get some of this. What???????? Talk about 180s!
So I am very confused obviously, pleased that she is thinkning about working it out but realy confused. So I sit her down and talk about it and she says her mum talked her into it but I dont believe that cause her mum has been saying to do what is good for her the whole time. I honestly think that she staying only because she is scared of the financial ramifications of leaving and as soon as she has enough cash she is gonna bolt for the door. In sort I do not trust her at all.
I told her to get back on track at some point we are going to have to display affection toward one another so she said she would try and for a few nights she gave me a cuddle while watching TV and a kiss good night (she still sleeps in separate room). But then another message saying she feels under pressure to have to do these things. I am not asking for sex or anthing big, indeed I was not asking that anything happen right now. I am really not sure what is going on right now, so confused. Part of me just wants her to get out so I can move on cause I feel that is where we are heading regardless as I can not see her ever letting me get close to her. I want it to work between us but have to question her motives.
