good signs, bad signs, or nothing at all

[confusedfather]

Well, she has cooled back off this week. I am practicing the LRT, and admit that going gray instead of pitch black is difficult. Our boys are really active in baseball, so every night we are doing something together.

This weekend is father's day, which would be ok except there is also my family's reunion, which she will not be attending. I am already dreading lying to my family about why she will not be there. I will also miss seeing her family as they celebrate fathers day. Her brother was my best friend before we married.

I am having a lot of trouble finding 180s. I am such a boring and predictable person. Am I better off doing the LRT while she is still in the house or is that better after she leaves? I don't want to GAL right now as my time of seeing the kids every day is limited. I don't want to give the impression that i am prioritizing myself over the kids since that is one of her complaints about me. Sorry I am bouncing all over the place. Just a little nervous about trying something new.