She just text me and says she's not going to the retrovaille followup tomorrow, she's filing Monday. I knew it was coming, but man it [censored].
I text her back that it was fine. She had to find her own way. I only am really worried about the kids. Also said we should schedule some time to figure out the short term and asked her to let me know when she was ready.
I'm more broken now than I ever was...my first instinct is to be self descructive, but I have a full day tomorrow of kid activities plus retrovaille follow-up, so I'm not going to do it. I can't afford to.
Yeah, I've been a crappy husband for a lot of years, but I don't take all the blame for our situation. I'm working on me and I'm going to continue to do so for me and my kids. I hope she changes her mind, but I'm not going to self destruct if she doesn't.
