GM, first let me tell you, many of the people on here have heard some variation of the, "I have to put myself first for once" speech. And yes, they forget what they say.

Good for you that you are starting to realize your truth. You are going to go back and forth and have some backslides for awhile.

But please dont regret the journey you have been taking. Each step of it is very important to go through and work through. You dont want to skip any if you want to get to the other side.

So, keep taking the focus off of him. Figure out who you want to be and how to get there.

Keep going. You are doing great!