I really feel like I'm just done. Being able to finally have an unemotional conversation with my H underscored that. Something has shifted in me. Am I finally at the place where all of you veterans have encouraged me to get to? Is this "dropping the rope?" Now I can finally focus on forgiving myself for the mistakes I made. I no longer care what my H thinks caused him to leave. I really don't. I have spent over six months thinking about how he feels and I spent a good amount of that time accepting his truth. He continues to feel justified and takes absolutely no responsibility for himself and I made it so easy for him to do that. No wonder he is so quick to answer the phone when I call. Each conversation is a wonderful opportunity for him. Why couldn't I have been in this place from the very beginning?
