Needing some guidance... 4

[reachingHigher]

Jks, sorry to hear the movie made you so sad. I saw the trailer a while ago but now am glad I didn't see it.

I've stopped listening to music in the car now. I just want to think my own thoughts--not somebody else's.

About missing our H's so much.....I was thinking how amazing and incredible my H was and how I'll never find anyone like him again. Ever.

Then...I started thinking how he was before we dated. (we worked together). I really didn't find him amazing and incredible before we started dating. Just a nice guy. He became this wonderful person as our love grew through the years.

When H came by the house last night I tried to look at him through different eyes. He just looked like a normal, average guy. He's just really special to me.

So...does that mean a lot of our missing them is the whole package? Or is that what love for another person really is?