Swimming with Turtles pt 2

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waiting on you to talk about what? he's in a R with someone else

ya think?

i swear lately 'm thinking that mil is subconsciously sabotaging my efforts. she has the strangest reactions - either she is getting all flustered and pissed about what he is doing, but lately she's started making excuses for him. like this morning when she says - oh he was stressed and tired that's why he forgot to call you - have you seen his house? if you did you'd understand why he's so stressed!!!

understand that - uh uh! he took that house on, the same way he took on the affair - and it [censored] and why should i be understanding about that?

problem is she herself is in a r with fil where he does whatever he please whenever, and i think it's too much for her to see me being even slightly rebellious. she's all on my side when i'm loving and forgiving but her hackles rise when i object even slightly/

i've been detaching from her quite a bit - in fact , quite a lot lately. taking bugs advice and staying away from his family. i don't care much for several of the decisions they have made lately and i don't really want to be a part of that scene any longer - not out of anger or anything like that - actually real indifference, as in go ahead with your lives, i'm going ahead with mine.

besides when i realized myself that i didn't want to be there - it occurred to me that it will allow him to be there more and possibly reconnect with them.

he so needs to talk to his parents and learn what really happened when his father left. he is basing all his decisions on what his father did not even beginning to realize that it was his mother who had the affair. he is going to be very confused and upended when he eventually finds out - if she has the guts to tell him, that is

for me, it's all starting to blow away in the wind a little bit more.

as for the brunch, i didn't say outright yes or no. but this morning i casually let slip that i may stay one more night at the camp so i can go visit the caves in the morning before i drive home. i think she was a bit taken aback.

you know brit - i just realized i've been in some sort of "game" for years with them and i am so so tired of playing it. it's a daily thing with the class, dealing with s, on and on! i want out right now

hmm - funny that's the exact words that h has been using since the bomb!!