How long is this ultramarathon anyway?

[jbnati]

I think I'm going to go out for a 3 mile run and 17 mile bike to clear my head. Under the cover of darkness.

BTW I did end up doing this on Tuesday night.

Gunny, thanks for stopping in. It did bother me a bit more yesterday.

Good that you made sure your S knew you were a safe place and available, if he needed it.

Absolutely, KD, absolutely. The way I see it, I am providing the stable home right now.

I think that like the rest of us that are still kicking around from our "generation"... it is what it is, my friend..

Yep, pretty much.

KD, you asked how I was doing yesterday. I think in one phrase it would be, "totally disgusted with my W right now". It sure helps the ambivalence. It makes it easier to let go, if she wants to let go. Am I concerned about where her life is heading? Yes, of course I am. I do still love her. However, I can't control her choices, I can only control mine.

I think my life has taken a healthy direction in the face of adversity. I want to keep the momentum going. I'd love for my W to jump on board, but she's indicating otherwise right now. I will be fine either way.

My W dropped off my S at work yesterday. My S told me he was really tired. When I asked him why he said he had an uninvited and unexpected guest staying in his room with him for the night. I didn't ask any more details, but it seems to me like OM and his S probably spent the night. Ugh! There are some days I wish she wasn't his Mom. Like I said earlier, it really helps with the ambivalence.