Lost

[dscl]

So to follow up on my venting from a couple of days ago.

I think I'm at the point that I accept we will not be together. In the last two months I said I was sorry for the things I did wrong in our M and she has not accepted any of the issues that she caused. Not only that, but she continues to try and blame me for her A, and I'm done listening to it. I know that the things I did like, not give her more of my time, or show her how much I loved her where wrong, but none of those gave her the right to have an A. If she felt that I did not give her what she needed and that I was a bad H, then she should had just told me she wanted a D, then we could have decided to either work on it with MC or just said OK to the D. The A is just a complete break of trust and to make it worst, to continue an A after I know about it is just a disrespect that I find hard to live with.

While I'm said that my M is ending, at the end of the day I must be able to live with myself and be a good father to my D.

Thanks to everyone who has given me advice.