Swimming with Turtles pt 2

[zig]

oh shite KD - sometimes your posts confuse me even MORE than i was already confused.

my head is starting to swirl a bit here after the discussions of today - and all this other stuff is starting to come up as if i have to decide right now about everything and that's when i get in a really bad place.

i have to learn to just drop it all

frankly after reading your response - i was leaning towards - this is just not f'ing worth it. i so need a break after 10+ months of trying to figure out all day long what is the correct DB approach. what to say what to do, what not to say etc. the best 180 here i could do for myself is just stop trying so hard - stop trying at all. what am i even trying for here - i'm losing sight of it, i think

i don't care any more what he wants and whether what i do is affecting him or how it's affecting him. it's about time i started thinking about myself

on the other hand: am i done here or just temporarily exhausted from my own emotional out pourings that are so heavy to get through


frankly the thought of offering that to h, makes me sort of sick to my stomach - go figure - i've spent 10 months working hard to "save my marriage" and today when the option comes up sort of, it makes me sick to my stomach

or am i sick to my stomach at the thought of him saying no?

how's this for my horoscope read this 3 days ago for this week and couldn't help thinking about it after the discussion with IC and the shock had abated

This coming Monday creates one more day of pressure at your home or at work. By now you have had it and you finally take matters into your own hands and do something firm about the situation. This not only relieves the pressure but it also seems to set you on the road on which your are supposed to go. If you do not do something you will somehow be forced to it by the situation. Read Gemini as it applies.


This is a week that a surprise move is made either by yourself or by someone else. Either way the move is a very unexpected and quite beneficial to you. Toward the weekend you believe you are making a very intelligent decision but you must be sure you are not deceiving yourself through your emotions. If a rational judgment is to be made, you must keep your emotions entirely out of it. Read Sagittarius as it applies.

just thought i'd take the time to add that in for a good belly laugh. note how it points out clearly that i have to leave my emotions out of it entirely

the universe is f'ing with me today - i HAVE TO CHILL!!!

I FRANKLY DON'T THINK I HAVE THE GUTS TO ACTUALLY DO THIS - unless i got some teeny tiny little itsy bitsy sign!!


either way - thanks for your thoughts on this - i think i have to read through your post after my minds a little more at ease. - in the morning



oh and btw,

Now, on the sex thing... let's just say... it's complicated..

is this just a totally male answer? soooo frustrating!!! can't we have some real concrete thoughts on it -from both the men and women here? go on , give it a try

thanks again KD

you are one sweet support for me

zig