i just was thinking and wondering if H looks less appealing bc that is reality or a way to cope with the disappointment? i ask bc i wonder that about my situation sometimes.

but maybe the truth is not either/or but both. it is reality but when we are in a M we hopefully learn to focus on the best of them, leaving the dislikes blurry..

and now we see everything more clearly, the flaws too, and that helps us cope with it all.


Me(f): 51 W: 41
DP:8 M:3 T:10
"W not happy" 7/11
D final: 8/13