roro and bug, you both sound like me. i just want this fixed and over with. i've been able to fix just about everything in my life, at one time or another, but i can't fix this!
i've found i have days of peace and days of anguish; days when i feel optimistic and days when all i can do is cry.
i ordered the book, "co-dependent no more" to see if i can glean some wisdom from it. i've read so many books, looking for the answer. i read everyone's posts on here.
i would like you both to fill me in on how you're keeping the focus off him and your R. i'm GAL all over the place but it's still on my mind when i do.
i need a time machine to take me into the future to when this is all settled and i'm happy again...
sorry for the hijack.
No worries about the hijack.
For me, it's just gotten easier. I don't think about every second of every day, or even every minute of every day. One day, I just didn't care to think about it as much. I needed to be thinking about ME.
You don't know how many times I wished for a time machine. Some days I still do. I haven't been GALing as much because of an injury, but I haven't been sitting around the house moping either. Most days my H sees a happier me.
SS, just keep going. That's all I can tell you. Don't stop GALing, don't stop learning about yourself and changing the things you don't like. KEEP GOING! It'll be worth it, I promise!
