roro and bug, you both sound like me. i just want this fixed and over with. i've been able to fix just about everything in my life, at one time or another, but i can't fix this!

i've found i have days of peace and days of anguish; days when i feel optimistic and days when all i can do is cry.

i ordered the book, "co-dependent no more" to see if i can glean some wisdom from it. i've read so many books, looking for the answer. i read everyone's posts on here.

i would like you both to fill me in on how you're keeping the focus off him and your R. i'm GAL all over the place but it's still on my mind when i do.

i need a time machine to take me into the future to when this is all settled and i'm happy again...

sorry for the hijack.

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing