My story, my progress, my hope

[Tinman]

Journal entry - So the day before she left for Vegas and after we went out for sushi her youngest 8 asked to come over and hang out with my kids and then her oldest 16 came over and hung out for a couple hours. I was thrilled because her boys, with good reason, felt left out when we were living together. This was one of her concerns that she felt like my ex-wife and her drama were first, then my girls, then her and her boys were fourth and that to her was unacceptable. I completely understand, her boys have a pretty decent life. Amazing mom and they have a pretty decent relationship with their dad so they really did not need me so I did not put the effort in that I should have. I have been trying very hard the last 3-4 months to give them more of me but it is a little more difficult to do as I don't see them very much and they are content to play xbox and hang out with their mom. I bought the 16 year old a small motor bike for his birthday with the intention of working on it with him. We have spent a little time changing the oil and a few times when he has run out of gas or had problems with it he has called me to come and get him and to help him fix it.
Anyway, when they came over to hang with us I was thrilled. W text and asked me to send them home so she could spend more time with them. Told her I was happy to see them but sent them home. I think if I could be a better father figure to them then that might also help plus I really do miss having them around and wanting to do stuff with me. Don't know what you have until it is gone:-(