Rollercoaster - Am I tall enough for this ride?

[labug]

I've been exploring some fears of my own and it has me exhausted. And I keep wanting to DO something, which is when i usually screw-up, big time.

I need to just be and that's difficult for me.

why he doesn't offer me the same kindness? Why am I not allowed to make a mistake (and believe me, I've made plenty)? Why can't he see that no we can't change the past, but we can have an even better future? I'm angry and scared that I'm not getting that second chance.

Maybe he is just not in the way you want him to. Not according to your expectation or timeline.

I've had 2 people tell me in the last week that I need to let go of outcomes, drop my timeline and just sort of roll with the rhythm of what's happening. These people were talking about another situation in my life but it's true of me as a whole. If something isn't just right according to me, I get the itch to fix and I will stew until I do something, even if it breaks something else.

I so know this pattern in myself.