W left from doing laundry a little bit ago... I messed up and told her I missed her... she ignored me... probably set me back a good bit.. having a hard time not feeling defeated... keep reminding myself it's only been 3 weeks... I've got a long way to go... could really use some uplifting words...
M:40 W:31 S:8 S:5 D:8(prev. relationship) Bomb dropped: 5/10/12 It's not you it's me MO: 6/1/12 T:14 M:9
Cheer up. In the scheme of things, that was very mild and actually a pretty good response for being only three weeks out. Heck, at that stage my H got to see me sobbing on the floor in a heap. Literally. You did good.
thank you, both so much... makes me feel much better... anyone else having a hard time with their perception of time..? this all started one month ago with the Bomb but it feels like each week has been a month to me.. my perception of time has completely fallen apart... I think because of that I am hoping for more than she's willing to give at this point... I keep reminding myself to look at the positives... we can talk normally, we can spend time together in public, she noticed my weight loss and said I looked good, she ASKED to come to the house to do her laundry, I cracked my skull on the dining room lamp(because she took the table) and she was concerned and asked to check it. Need to take comfort in the small things and realize there are baby steps... I'm only 100 yards from the start of this 26 mile marathon... will continue to have Faith that we were MEANT to be together... we have struggled through and got past too much for me to stop believing that... God will show us the way... thanks again for your encouraging words... Have faith, be good and stay safe...
M:40 W:31 S:8 S:5 D:8(prev. relationship) Bomb dropped: 5/10/12 It's not you it's me MO: 6/1/12 T:14 M:9
thank you Scared... I pray it isn't beyond hope... just got to wait on HER breakthrough... I know it time it will come... doing my best to focus on positives.. thank you for your encouraging words... have faith, be good and stay safe...
M:40 W:31 S:8 S:5 D:8(prev. relationship) Bomb dropped: 5/10/12 It's not you it's me MO: 6/1/12 T:14 M:9
So I just W to drop off kids with her. She called and asked if we wanted anything for lunch. I declined and told her we ate before we left the house. She said ok see you in a bit I LOVE YOU.... oop, uh bye. I said see you and didn't acknowledge she said it. I know its not much, and was a slip, but it was a slip. We have talked several times in person and over the phone and this is the first time she's said that since the bomb. Everything happens for a reason, and just when I was feeling discouraged, she had a slip.
Its something. I'm taking it.
M:40 W:31 S:8 S:5 D:8(prev. relationship) Bomb dropped: 5/10/12 It's not you it's me MO: 6/1/12 T:14 M:9
met with a christian councilor today and I have to say he helped me very much... showed me that my old marriage was dead and should be because it WAS broken, and that W has given me the gift of time.. to work on us becoming friends and possibly then falling back in love... he's going to help me with the detaching as well as goals to make myself a better man... I have to say I feel better than I have in days having an actual plan with guidance... her slip has definitely added to the happiness... will keep praying and believing that time and distance will help her and me.. keep the faith, be good and stay safe...
M:40 W:31 S:8 S:5 D:8(prev. relationship) Bomb dropped: 5/10/12 It's not you it's me MO: 6/1/12 T:14 M:9