I'd like to piggy back something that Bea, T and Jack have posted. It wouldn't matter if your h was married to someone else, he would still have his mlc.

Please keep reminding yourself that you didn't break him, therefore you can't fix him. This is all about him and it's his journey into h@ll.

Your journey is to make you stronger, independent, more compassionate and wiser. You have faced your journey head on. Your h has not, but he will at some point.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.