Needing some guidance... 4

[bustingout]

I have had those dreams before. Waking up emotionally drained because it's like you were actually having the awful experience.

I'm sorry jks. But maybe its part of the healing process. Going through it even if its in your dreams. A way to purge some of the ugliness.

Before we left on holiday, unpacked up some leftover clothes of H's put them in a box, and moved some of my dresses to his side of the closet.

I still wakeup missing him, but afte this amount of time its almost a distant memory. Don't know whether that is good or sad.

Regaining space I think is important. I refused to do it since he left. His drawers remain empty his closet empty his side of the bed ready. What I did before leaving was almost not a decision. It's like I just did it without thinking. Maybe it was just time. Its my space now.

Jks, as for talking about it. I agree. Sometimes I just force myself not to talk about it with anyone because I am even sick of hearing my own voice.

This is the forum to do it I think. Because you are unloading on your sisters and brothers in arms. and we will always give our best back to you to keep you up and strong.

Have a good day.

Thinking about you...