I've decided I'm giving myself 2 weeks to decide on whether or not to move from the place I'm renting. TBH, it would be so much upheaval for S because we're near his school. And this place allows a pet. I'm thinking that staying still is the best thing. It's only really another year until S finishes school (scary thought) and then I could move anywhere in the country (again scary thought) so I think I'm leaning towards living cheap for the next year and then evaulating.
I said on someone's thread that if my IC had said okay you're unhappy but it's not like you're in danger in you M. Let's work on getting you happier with you for say 6 months, a year and then make a decision. How this whole thing could have turned out differently. I'm applying that to this sitch too my threshold of patience and time has changed so much. I'm appreciating the gift of time like never before.
H kept talking about my schedule (and how I always had plans and lists) How much better is life with no schedule?
Maybe I'll have more kids maybe I won't. Maybe I'll move home one day maybe I won't. Maybe H and I will work out maybe not. Let's just work on me being happier with me and then reevaulate.
PS one of the things I am routinely grateful for is this board. I don't know how many times I have turned to you guys for help/support/knowledge. I feel as thought I've learnt and grown so much in the past month from finding you. I'm grateful for the friends I've made and from the support of knowing I'm not alone in my feelings. others feel the same way. it's not unique. My M problems are very common. This is a fantastic community.
