Brit, I love your idea of creating your own space. Thank heavens I don't live in our old home because it would be that much more painful. But at my mom's the space isn't really my own at all. I did recently have a thought to make some really large prints of my kids from the pictures I just took of them and hang them up in my room for that added "umph!" I know it would help a lot.

When I think about my dream last night, I think it exemplifies my feelings of having no control. H is doing these awful things and hurting me in such horrible ways and I continually have no control no matter how hard I want to fight it. And OW sits on the sidelines so proud of herself for getting everything she wants. I cannot think about this anymore, I will drive myself crazy!!


Me: 32 H: 32
M 9 yrs
#1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2
Bomb 8/12/11
H moved out 8/14/11
PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12
Got my own place 8/25/12
H & OW move in together 9/15/12
Still married.