Swimming with Turtles pt 2

[zig]

thanks brit and needgrace - for your kind words.

i knew i was beating myself up too hard over it - but it was only until i gained the real insight into those feelings this morning and allowed myself to acknowledge for the first time to myself something that i refused to deal with from the moment s was born.

i couldn't face those feelings, because "good" people don't have those. i worked my a$$ off really really hard for 10 yrs trying not to face them - and today i did - and just in the facing of them , so much fell away, so much could be seen and felt, so much could be understood, and so much could be forgiven.

i feel new today - in some little way:)

zig