I have seen someone off and on - and have an appointment tomorrow. It has been helpful - but I probably need to do more of it. Like most, I have good and bad periods. Thankfully, I am past "shell-shocked" (I think) and know that the D is coming.
Get a life and detach. I know those are the two keys, and as much as I want to I seem to struggle with both. I don't know if it is depression or what that take ahold of me at times - but sometimes I feel paralyzed with emotion.
Breaking free would be a lot easier without S. It is a blessing and a curse that he binds us. I am forced to interact with her because of him - I have no choice. And having to see and deal with her makes it harder for me to recover emotionally and detach. When I see her, I have feelings (both good and bad) come rushing back to me. And Ultimately, when I leave her presence, I feel sad. I am still attraced to her (amazingly, after all this) and don't know how to turn it off.
Fear and sadness - those are the two things that are kind of doing me in right now. They come and go....but they are never GONE. Not yet, anyway.
