Time to make a decision

[Queen_of_Swords]

Thank you Jack,
I'm somewhat surprised you can even detect the changes within me in my writing.
I happen to agree with your assessment. I have nothing to lose in giving H. three months to decide. It costs me nothing.
In any event, it will be either a finish line or a new point to start from.
I still feel sadness, on occasion, but that's OK. If you can't feel sadness neither can you feel happiness.
That is just the dual nature of our existence.

I still love H, but it's now more Agape than Eros or romantic love. I hope he finds himself and ultimately realizes his place in this world.