Went to church yesterday and was informed that it would be closing it's doors next week.
My church is very small - about only 40-50 people. We've been growing but not enough to hold up financially.
Their beliefs in regards to community and showing God's love has been a great influence in my life.
To lose them is like losing my family.
It's the 2nd family I've lost in a year.
In my head, I know it's different. My wife chose to not be part of my family anymore. The people of my church will still be there - just not in the same way...
..but in my heart... it's still painful. It still feels like a loss.
I know that not everyone who is brought into your life is there for the duration of your life....
.... sometimes I just wish I had a little bit more say on who those people are.
We have a town meeting tonight to discuss. I need to feel everything I can in the next few hours and let it go... because although I am sad, angry, and honestly a little bit scared..
.. there is my pastor - who is 30 - who gave up his part time job, moved into a more expensive home to accommodate is VERY pregnant wife with their 3 child who is due at any time...
... who no longer has a job and has NO IDEA what God has in store for them.
And I need to be there for him and his family.
Prayers for him would be much appreciated.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
