I'm smiling NOT because of the painful parts of this, but because of the steel evident in you now. The change in who you are; as you have stated, and stated correctly...a better person.
Any decision now; will be one weighed fully, with as little regret attached to it as humanly possible.
As for the 3 months? What do you have to lose? If you can then allow it; if it is too much then don't. This is your call and again; now the call you make is the coming from the currently best possible Queen.
No anger, no emotion, no blind hope, no despair either; but emotion tempered with logic.
Good for you Queen.
Really good for you.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
