And thank you for following my thread(s) in general. Hopefully I am not as big of a mess as I was in the beginning.
Regarding the letter, for all intents and purposes I have locked it away. This was only the 3rd time I have read it (maybe 4th) since she gave it to me. It makes my head spin a bit and I just decided it was best for me not to revisit it much.
Wife was very insecure when we met - but would not admit it, and in fact would strongly object if someone suggested it to her. Maybe over the years I helped her - if so, I guess I am glad.
I am strugging with getting a life because at the moment I think I just feel overwhelmed by life as a whole. Seems like when I don't have my son there are a mountain of things that I need to get done that I have ignored - and when I do have him, I am trying to be as engaged of a father as I can be.
Regardless, to your point - I am doing my best to let her go. I really do not inject myself into her life much at all. Then only reason I have to is because of our son - if not that for, it would be much easier to just not talk.
I have been on ADs since before the bomb. After that, my dosage was increased and I started something for anxiety whenever it flairs up. They have helped - I can't inagine where I would be without them. For the most part, I can stay out of the worst part of the cloud - some days I just slip back a little deeper for awhile. I hate it, but I can usually plow my way out of it.
Thanks again for chiming in and following my situation.
