I hope everything goes okay for you. You been on this miserable road for too long. Just remember couple of things.
1: Be true to yourself. If you find yourself doing something against your element, then question it and dont be afraid to stand up for what you believe in.
2: Remember that freedom begins by saying 'No'
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